Still Hunting

Dear Universe,  
We spoke about this back in June. 
That was four months ago.

I'm still in need of a good job in a nice, local school - preferably a non-religious one, or one that's accepting of Pagan borderline agnostic weirdos like me.  

Being on JSA and temping sucks.   I've had the chance to work in some lovely schools, and some less lovely ones.  I have a clearer idea of where I'd be happy.  
I have my top three in mind, but I'm prepared to be flexible - it doesn't have to be at one of my top three, or even my top five. 
Dear Universe, I trust you. 
If there's a school I don't know about where I would be a perfect fit, then by all means allow the pieces to fall into place and light my way.

And, dear Universe,
If this career isn't meant for me,
A flipping huge wodge of cash to allow me to pursue an alternative would be really handy
Thank you 

Job Hunting Again

Hey ho.  

Here we go again. 

I love the school I'm working at, I love the class I work in.  I get on really really well with the class teacher.  But it's too far, and it's only a temporary post in any case, and it runs out at the end of August. 

I need a local job.  One where I don't have to spend 4 hours of my day travelling.  I need a work/life balance.  I need it to be attached to a class, rather than being all over school doing PPA or intervention groups.   Ideally I'd love it to be in Year 1, Year 3 or Year 5.  I love those odd number year groups :)   I'd really really like it to be permanent, too, but I know that's a big thing to wish for.  Hell as long as I'm wishing, can it be in a non-religious school with people who aren't nuts, and who are cool about weirdo pagan bisexual folk.   If it pays a little better than average that'd be great too. 

Please, Universe, can we do this?   I've had enough of coming to the end of the school year with nothing to move on to but JSA, itty bitty badly paid supply jobs and pointless assfuckery by the job centre.

Sincerely,
Me. 

How long since I last wrote?

I can't quite get over how long it's been since I blogged on here.  I've been put off blogging by lack of time and that I'm not really sure what I want to say.   I set up another blog last year so I could talk about relationship issues, but I've not even used that one for nearly 6 months.   It doesn't feel like a safe space to say what I want any more.  My own fault, because I had links to it from other websites from before I decided I was going to talk about quite explicit stuff that I couldn't post elsewhere, and I forgot to remove one of the links.   I never intended to cause pain by my private ramblings, just work through my own feelings and thoughts.  However, what's done is done, and I'll have to live with the fact that I've lost friends over it.  

I should probably bite the bullet and just dive in.   I don't know if anyone else can still see that blog.   I know I have no links to it from any external sites now, but it still feels weird, like you know there's a voyeur in the apartment over the road, but your flat has no curtains and all you can do is get changed in the dark and hope they either can't see or they've gone out already.