How long since I last wrote?

I can't quite get over how long it's been since I blogged on here.  I've been put off blogging by lack of time and that I'm not really sure what I want to say.   I set up another blog last year so I could talk about relationship issues, but I've not even used that one for nearly 6 months.   It doesn't feel like a safe space to say what I want any more.  My own fault, because I had links to it from other websites from before I decided I was going to talk about quite explicit stuff that I couldn't post elsewhere, and I forgot to remove one of the links.   I never intended to cause pain by my private ramblings, just work through my own feelings and thoughts.  However, what's done is done, and I'll have to live with the fact that I've lost friends over it.  

I should probably bite the bullet and just dive in.   I don't know if anyone else can still see that blog.   I know I have no links to it from any external sites now, but it still feels weird, like you know there's a voyeur in the apartment over the road, but your flat has no curtains and all you can do is get changed in the dark and hope they either can't see or they've gone out already.